5:48 am 9/7/18
I can feel
the weight of carrying something I cannot see.
This something is blocking me from easy decision. It weighs on me, like a mourning. It’s a pain from somewhere deep in the recesses
of my mind. I wonder what it is. It may be the beginning of a remembrance that
has crippled me that needs to be rewritten.
It may be initiating the end of something I thought was permanent. It’s something that needs to be done. Or it leads to something that needs to e
done. It is unceasing. It is not a question
of if I will have to deal with it, but when.
Why does it have weight? Why is
it distracting me from everyday stuff?
I lit 2 candles. 1 blue for clarity and 1 white for strength